you are the reality in Folie a Dupe
12th Aug 2019, 10:26 PM
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12th Aug 2019, 10:26 PM

~2/17/2019 - 3/12/2019.

a long comic trying to process some emotions... or lack thereof. this talk was the push i needed to move out of my controlling father's apartment, and it was finished a little bit after the task was accomplished.
a couple of phenoms were mentioned indirectly here: during the late end of 2018, dupe's penchant for self-destructive behaviors and "experimenting" with their body and its reactions triggered contra's direct presence, followed by a month or 2 of almost 100% executive control during the first part of refeeding, with intense inner sessions of thought and memory modification through repeated punishment (this is the part "being tortured into submission" is referencing).
then, more abruptly, they stopped being present internally at all, somewhere around november, leaving gray in charge again. so the "i miss you" part is from about 4 months of sudden absence.
the "she" referenced in the beginning of the comic is juno, who became much more active for a period as well.

retrospectively, i have to wonder whether dupe was really waiting to stay up reading or just checking in (although i have to honestly still assume the former... >_>)